You are not trapped. You are loyal to a version of yourself you have not yet updated.

The behaviors you cannot change are often not habits. They are obligations to a past self. You are honoring the preferences, coping mechanisms, and strategies of someone who no longer lives in your circumstances. Loyalty to that self is not virtue. It is drag. Growth requires updating the record: deciding which old commitments still make sense and which ones you have been carrying out of inertia.